Conflicts?! not between countries...

Somehow i know something will happen right after another month of Anniversary. And my prediction was so true that today, something has really really happened. Because of me, of course. It has been a 'cycle' to know that what is going on later. On every Anniversary, happy things may come and sad things may go off quickly. But after that day, sad things comes and happy things go. It sounds weird to everyone. It is hard to truly understand one person, but at least most personality??

And It goes like this.. This starts phone call, from him. The conversation about i'm i free or not, whether can i pei him go out or not.. it's really a last minute for a meet up with him because i have already 'booked' by kenny [quite long ago le].. Den he was like giving me attitude by just saying 'forget it' without even a bye, and den hang, so i ask him why through sms, and it slowly lends to why i have to say i'm being booked, as if he must book me every time i go out. i explain to him it is just a word to describe, not that i want him to do that.

Conflict 2, he sms and ask me whether cani sms chat with him, and of cause i said yes, but i end up giving him late reply[s], just because of the late reply, he send me this::
'I think we end here ba. If you dun feel like talking with me reply also dun have i think i not your cup of tea le hais.'"'If you still dun wan reply i take it as your answer is yes'
I really have no idea why he thinks this way.. it's because of late reply, and he can just say out such things, the 1st thing comes to my mind is i'm just a toy for him to play till he dun want, den he will throw. i really shouldn't have said that i'm free for sms chat. Giving fake promises can really hurt someone. he is definitely angry with me now.. Even if i say sorry, it wont help, it will just make it worse. he scolded me that the sorry i said was not from my heart, this sentencee really hurts me. Even if i say i not free, he will say that i dun miss him and all sort of stuff.

Conflict 3, whether can i meet up with him tml. Well this is really forcing but not ask. If he really wants me to meet up with him, den say it straight than keep asking ans asking to meet up. And he meeting up with another girl who take his no. from him. I felt so irritated when he said this.
And demanding that meet time must be at 1pm, it's actually ok, but what about my lunch?
as u can see, i'm those pig that wake up late for lunch. and if i must reach there by 1pm, i must get out of my house by 12.. not that i dun want. Is that i scared i'll be late for the meet up..
and the way his sms is somehow showing me attitude. i told him, but it end up worse. His disappointed, and blame himself keep saying his fault..

Kenny Chan~ Kawaii Desu! Xp

Today is a Draggy day for me to go out..
Actually, i meeting my friend at 1pm..
But end up, we meet each other at 4pm.
sound weird right? haha.. same old problem..
My fuck hell family la.. got problem again..
Same thing happens, they pushed all blames on me..
All sorts of scolding and crying [not me]..
Dragg my time, they force me to cook lunch,
which is already 2.30pm.
Everything keeps me so irritated.
Till i almost scream for help..


[[Boon Keng MRT st. Quite Big le..]]

At 4pm, met Kenny at Boon Keng mrt station.
Ohh.. He's not bad, cute bahx Xp.
LoL.. feeling weird when going out with a boyboy..
haha.. looks kiddy too.. [not that larhx..]
Went to Shaw Plaza for a walk,
it's actual quite far away..
but it is his request, so i thought nevermind lor..
Throughout the whole 'outing',
we keep on chatting and chatting lor.
Quite a joker, okay vulgar lor.
somehow can take it. coz me also like that..

Reach home at 7.30pm, Guess what??
NO DINNER!! Zzz i got to cook for everyone,
FINE!! AND STOP BLAMING ME!!!

7th month Anniversary!! I LOVE YOU LAO GONG!!

TODAY IS A VERY SSPECIAL DAYY!!
IT'S OUR 7th MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!
=) Sweet & Long Lasting Relationship (=

Meet up with Laogong after work..
Went to CityPlaza de arcade play,
haha, we somehow in love with the arcade machine..
It makes my laogong play non-stop.. Xp
Went walking around that area, and back to Eunos.
Anyway, it's a really WoW day!! Xp bleah!!

Work

Oh! It has been weeks that i haven update le..

Haha!! Brand new Life in Year 2008!!
Hah! Guess What? I've started working le..
=.= sounds kinda weird for a age of studying to work..
Well.. It's somehow a long story behind this..
I'm working as a part time banquet waitress,
at Park Hotel [Scott Rd, Somerset].
It's a Buffet Breakfast shift,
all i need to do is just to clear and set tables.
Does it sounds easy?? Not tiring at all??
NO!! It's TIRED!! for the feet..
coz all blood pleasure went down..
Haha! 5 hrs per day, $6 per hr.
By next month, i shld be able to earn $600.
this $600 is not for any leisure stuff,
but it's for my school fee in ite,
seens my dad so jik arh, den it's better to earn myself.

This is how i look.. Just after work..

Great Day?

Hah! Once again.. I didn't go skl..

Woke up at 10.30am, which is the

time for students to have their recess..

Went out to Macphson Ite, of course

not just only for my lao gong..

For my future course too..^^

Sad, i should apply those course

early then to wait for the april intake..

Actually it won't be wasting my time,

course i'm finding a part time too..

Went to Simei ite too, WOOOOT!!!!

That school was really HELL BIG!

It just looks exactly like a polytechnic,

you might even be lost in there.. Sad to say,

i missed a good opportunity in getting into the

Biotechnology (Higher Nitec),

the intake has already closed,

and if i were to apply for it, i must wait till next year..

After visiting schools and sort of stuff,

we slacked at Parkway, walk walk and back to Eunos..

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
Meet a New Friends =) 我会好好珍惜的!!!

Important Qs

if you have one chance to create a miracle, what will it be?

Think carefully before you actually answer it..

My Future

Well now, i'm waiting for my mum to come back..
no one could stop me by doing what i want..
the only person can handle my future is ME, not others..
My chose, and i must go for ite, it's for my own not for others..
The Only Bright road for me is to go Ite..
I dun wan anyone to look down on me le..

I Just Wanna Be Myself!!!

Fuck Hell Skl

Fuck The HeLL SkL
2nd day of school, really bua ta han liao..
fuck sia.. The class filled with immature monkeys..
Keep fooling around, noises sucks..
Really wanted to Burn down the fuck hell skl..
Nabeijibye, really bua ta han la..

I REALLY REALLY RATHER PAY
FOR MY OWN SKL FEE AND STUDY ITE LOR..
FUCK HELL!! I SO GUAI FOR WHAT SIA!!
ISN'T STUDYING IS FOR MY OWN FUTURE??
WHY CANT I TRANSFER TO ITE?? FUCK UP!!
WHAT I DO WRONG?? JUST ONLY CANT
BE PROMOTE BY ONE MARK!
DEN MUST WASTE A YEAR MEH??
WHAT I WAN FOR MY FUTURE,
YOU MUST CARE MEH??
DUN WANT GIVE INCOME BIG AR??
LIKE THAT AS WELL CAN SAY
I NOT UR DAUGHTER LIAO LOR!!
ANGRY JUST KNOW ANYHOW SAY THINGS!!
I COME TO THIS WORLD IS TO LIVE HAPPILY!!
U ASPECT ME TO BE OTHERS??
I CANT.. I RATHER BE MYSELF!!
AND I HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE MYSELF!!
NOT THAT I DUN WAN U TO CARE OR WHATEVER SHIT!!
I DIDNT EVEN PROMISE U THAT I WILL PASS LOR!!
I DUN EVEN HAVE THE XIN XING LA!!
FORCE ME TO SAY I'LL PASS!!
WHAT A JOKE LA!!
EVERYTHING U SAY WAS RIGHT!!
U TOLD ME THAT NO MATTER
WHAT U WILL SUPPORT ME ON
WHATEVER I STUDY ON!! AND NOW??
U BREAK PROMISE!! NOT ONLY I BREAK PROMISE!!
U BREAK IT WORSE!! I RATHER SAVE UP
MONEY NOT GOING BACK HK AND STUDY HERE!!
I RATHER GO HELL WORK DEN
PEOPLE LOOK DOWN ON ME!!
FUCK HELL!! THIS WORLD SUCKS!!
NOT EVEN A DRIP OF LIGHT!!

Everything is Changing

Well i really duno know what to say now..
Just so sudden, everything is messed up..
More conflict happened between us..
Just of because of one Fucking Bitch..
Who trying to flirt him away??
You might hate me when i said this..
But it is really not fair to me..
The attitude difference towards me and that bitch..
What are you treating me like??
Just a nobody, or even a doll for you to play with??
I felt so useless, when i start to compare..
I'm just nothing, wondering around..
I only know how to make other upset or angry..
I'm not as rich as that bitch..
I'm not those people who use money to buy friendship or relationship.
My studies can't be compared..
My attitude is Hell sucks den others..
I'm ToTaLLy NoTHiNG!!

Happy New Year

Yesterday, my Lao gong cook for me..
Dinner for the Night!!!
Fried rice.. yummy!!


me n lao gong, that day we went Bugis